Have you ever thought how important you are to this world? Without you, so many things would be different in so many people's lives. We truly live in a world of butterfly effects.
The reason I bring this up as my mind spiderwebs across a million little things and I "stumble upon" a blog of a certain someone I burned a bridge many years ago. As I cruise her blog I cannot but help but take credit for a lot of her happiness. I bet you she doesn't see it that way. But the light from that burned bridge lights the way for many. Well, she started the bridge on fire, I just threw unlit dynamite into the fire. Hey, what do you want from me? When I burn a bridge, I make sure it can't be rebuilt.
This particular person was a very close friend of mine, meeting when we were 18 years old. I want you to see how a friend like you or me has many rewards for others. This is the "if it weren't for me" game. I've walked that dark line of feeling unworthy and useless, and these little games reminded me that though I might not have achieved world greatness (yet) God still loves me and I make a great impact.
Check it out:
If if weren't for me:
She would have never met a whole new group of nice friends (away from gang life)
She would have never met her boyfriend P. and the decide to run away to Florida
Where in Florida she married husband D.
When things fell apart, she missed Chicago, I flew down and drove her and her stuff back (on my dime)
Back home to a whole new group of my friends.
Where she met my ex-boyfriend, who was a good friend of mine.
Who she got drunk with and "hooked up" with.
Who she fell for and eventually married.
In the midst of all that, over 8 years, I was always there for her, giving her anything she needed, friends, money, support and entertainment from the industry I ran. All this and she used me, turned her back when I needed her most and hurt my other friends' feelings (not just my own feelings) for her own self gain. (Not to mention all the people she tried and did actually hook up with in the process. Can we say skanky?)
I giggle to myself that I became her enemy out of her selfish reasons but if not for me her life would have gone a different direction. It's all good. I am the main reason she is where she is and with who she is with and that makes me happy. Do I think she's a good person, not really. Did I lose out on anything, not really. She helped make room for the real friends in my life and I am grateful for that.
This is just 1 example of how 1 person can make a different in a person's existence. I'm blessed how everything turned out because in the end when I lost everything and everyone I found my husband. She made room for the love of my life. So here's to the butterfly effect and how truly important you are in this world. If you weren't here, I don't where the rest of us would be.
Effectively yours, Merry Ms Berry
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