One case in point is that I was recently told that I need to let go of some grudges. I was always one to forgive, forget and move forward but as I had gotten older it became harder and harder for me to be as compassionate. One reason was because I believe that as we age we should be getting wiser and more conscious of ourselves and those around us. Little did I know that not everyone thinks like I do, and that we live in a very selfish and self-centered world. Not everyone but more than I care for.
One earlier blog was about an ex-best friend and how just being friends with me changed the course of her life a few times. I, also, come to learn that my empathy and compassion for people are rare gifts that not everyone has or understand....ya that kinda blew my mind. So, with keeping that in mind I had a dream that the ex-bff was in, we were back to being friends, were training for a marathon together and even had dinner with her and her significant other. It was a nice dream and I woke up feeling good. I know dreams like these are meant to tell me to let go of any bad feelings that I have with people in my past. I get it. Come to think of it, I really did enjoy having the spazz-monkey as a friend. It sucks the way everything fell apart the way it did. I later went into a new relationship, and she did too. So I'm guessing we needed to be apart to focus on our respective "soon to be" husbands.
It's not like I have a lack of people in my life and losing one friend is going to destroy my world. On the contrary it gives me the room and energy to focus on those still in my life, or just make room for new people to enjoy.
So, to my past friend. I'm sorry that everything went down the way it did. Everything happens for a reason. I forgive you for focusing on your true love and I forgive myself for letting myself feel so hurt. I wish you no ill will. Take care of my old friend and may you live out each other's lives in bliss.
Epiphanily yours, Merry Ms Berry
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