Once again I've been burned and made to feel that I am someone that can get pushed around, stepped on and made to feel completely unimportant. I am Jack's broken heart.
I've put a lot of my happy into working for people only take care of those that whine, bitch and complain. That is not who I am. I work hard. I smile. I take care of others. And what do I get for it? I steaming pile of smoke and mirrors, broken promises and blatant lies to my cute little face.
Well, I've roughly updated my resume. Not that it really matters because I do not want another office position. The perks are not good enough when you are made to feel insignificant. And I am putting myself out there. Out anywhere where I am celebrated for being me.
But here's the fucking kicker of it all!!!! They are going to miss the living hell out of me when I'm gone. How do I know? Because every single time I would take any time off, whether a week long vacation or an extra couple days for a weekend to Las Vegas or New York City, I would come back and everyone would be singing my praises. Hugs and kisses galore! "Please don't leave. We missed you so much."
WELL if that were the case across the board I wouldn't feel so shitty. Yes, the women I work with and a handful of men, really do appreciate the work that I do. But then there's upper management. Those fucking pinheaded penny pinching blind sided, narrow minded muthafukas that want to "keep me in my place".
NOT ANYMORE!!!!!
FUCK ALL OF THEM!!!! I refuse to become some whiny two-bit shit head just to get noticed. Honor and praise those who work hard and go above and beyond for others around you, with NO ulterior motives.
I knew this was coming. I just didn't know exactly when. I thought I would have had a little bit more time to get my finances in order before throwing myself back out into the world. God has a different plan for me. He wants 2013, 95% to be all about being me. New me. Old me. The best me that I am supposed to be.
Here's to fucking ME!!!
AMEN! Life is too short to spend most of it doing something that makes you miserable. You were not meant to sit behind a desk and be someone's peon. You're too much of a badass for that. Your groove thing needs to be shaken in a place where you can shine freely, so get out there and find a place that wants a diamond, because you deserve nothing less!
ReplyDeleteHere's to you indeed! I love the goldfish picture at the bottom because you are definitely about to step it up and do something fucking incredible with your life. You were pushed around but you are going to Superman it out of the lives of those jerks and you're going to be a better person for it (which sounds kind of like you've got your work cut out for you cause you sound pretty awesome already).
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