It's about that time. Ya know when Superman or Spiderman just wants to be a normal because when they are trying to save the world they are getting nothing but shit on. Well ya, I'm at that point. It's not one major thing that happens, it's the little stabs at the heart, the tiny inconsistencies of being inconsiderate. I always think of others before I think of myself because somewhere along this fucked up process, that's how I thought I would get treated. But sadly enough that is not the case. I want to believe people are good, but time and time again I just get pushed around, let down, or taken advantage of. AND I am the only one to blame. I give people to much bloody credit! So, I'm taking off my superhero cape. My shoulders are sore from carrying the BS of others. I will always be here to send out my words of love and strength, but right now my heart is heavy and I need to love me first.
The world will go on and people will remain the same. But until I see otherwise is my immediate life, which is totally on me, don't expect me to be saving anyone. I am saving myself and my hubby, because he's the only one that needs me now and forever, like I need him.
I thought your friends were supposed to be there to help you, not take care of you. You take care of pets and children, not GROWN adults. If you are a grown adult and feel you need to be taken care of.....GET OVER YOURSELF. YOU'RE NO ONE SPECIAL! We all have to go through crap. We all have responsibilities. And we all have to depend on no one but ourselves. I have to do what I have to do! You have to do what you have to do! Just DO IT!
Okay, I'm done. Unless something earth shattering strikes my heart and makes me want to share with you, please don't expect much from me right now. I love you all, but I love me most. I have to, because that's why you get the best of me in these words.
Sparingly, NotsoMerry Ms Berry
I <3 you honey and hope you're ok! You've been an ear for me, so don't forget that I have one for you too!
ReplyDeleteThanks Feesh! I love you! There are just times that I know I need to focus on myself and let people stand on their own 2 feet. That's the tough love aspect of being me, but I have to be reminded of it.
ReplyDeletehi there merry ms berry, I am sorry that you are
ReplyDeletefeeling like this hope you find some time to rest and regain your strength. I can also relate to this feeling I will always be here if you need a friend (The guardian of the Temple) your friend just joined your blog you are an inspiration to me each one can reach one that's all its about not the world,only the few! the world love's it own.