I didn't not blog yesterday and it feels like a little piece of me is missing, only because I love speaking to the world so much. So I reached out to KKK or K3. Now before you lose your mind, I am referring to my Krazy Kousin Kiki. I know it should be CCK, but that's not as fun. I have also, referred to her as Cousin Ocho, because she lost a couple toes in an accident, so she's down to 8 (get it? Ocho? 8, yes it's that funny). So K3 asked me to talk about having a life plan. She like to have plans, goals, lists and is in constant motion to achieve something, which is awesome, but why. Do I have a life plan, if so, what is it? If I don't, why not?
I personally never sat down with my thoughts and planned out my life. I knew I wanted to get married and have a family, but I never put a time frame on it. I went to college but never found the passions in my field, so I didn't force myself into any big degrees. When it came to wanting to succeed and planning for it, I guess I didn't really think about it, I just did it. And when I didn't like it anymore, I just stopped. Why kill myself at something and I'm not in love with?
So when is a good time to stop living moment to moment and start planning ahead? Financially I was always good at saving and spending money. I always guarded my credit score and drivers license. I loved freely and did not worry about having a boyfriend or not. I have always had good friends around me, even in the darkest of times when I couldn't see.
I believe you can't or shouldn't plan out a love life. People are put into your life to learn from, no matter how good or bad. It's in these experiences where you should be forming what is ideal for yourself, whether you believe in soul mates or not, or just someone "forever". I never put a time line on love. Is that even possible? I just went on how I felt. The body is the biggest guidance system you have. If you feel great, go with it. If you feel bad, back away.
You can control a career if it's something your passionate about. But you can't control a relationship because you shouldn't have to control another person. How exhausting would that be? You can bend people's will to you, but why would you want to?
Can you really have a life plan? Doesn't life change all the time? Isn't futile to really try and plan it out?
I used to ride horses, almost at the professional level, but my interests changed and I stopped. I used to create art out of all my raging emotions. I got control and sorted out my emotions, the art kinda just stopped. The only real consistency that I have in my life when it comes to hobbies, passions and/or careers is people. I love people! I love to help people! I love having different kinds of relationships, uplifting, living and learning from those in the world around us. It's all I ever think about. The only "life plan" I can think about having for myself is to help people. But how do I plan to do that when I just live it?
I live my plan, but I don't have a plan. I love in my relationships and God blesses me with wonderful people who either, need my love or I need theirs, and most of the time its both together.
Yes, I would like to have children, but if I can't I'll understand. I can do something different. I love dogs, so I can just get one. Can it be the same with other parts of my life? I would like to think so, but you never know.
My life plan is that I do what I like. I don't know how else to plan out for life. Tomorrow is can all change, so can we really plan for anything or just hope our plans stick? Everything happens for a reason, and I will always live by that saying. Doesn't life pass you by when you are busy planning it anyway?
Longingly, Merry Ms Berry
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